Today I made lists. This has proved to be a very useful exercise. With each list I started from birth right up to present day listing everything. It has taken hours. But was an amazing, albeit exhausting, mental and emotional purging. There was crying, shaking, panic, and quiet resolve. I feel better if not a little worse for wear. And of course am seeing now my own self as a flawed human being deserving of my own love. I hope this could be a useful step for other people as well. It sure will at least give me a lot to talk about in therapy tonight!
Here’s a list of what I made lists of:
Things I am sorry for
Things I forgive other people for
Things I am proud of
Things that were not my fault
Things that were my fault
Things I am grateful for
I always like to make grateful lists. This one was amazing tho because it didnt just encompass present day. And. It was the longest list of all!